Healing process

Tropico Soundtrack (Symphony Orchestra) / All music rights reserved by Lana Del Rey

Healing process

I hope one day I can prove how incredible I think this world is because this world is so big and in a universe as vast as ours, the feelings you haven’t felt are already there; we’ve existed before you were even created. And that is the beauty – I have bled out so many names. By now, you are not looking at a girl, or a sister, or an ex, or a lover. You are looking at the happening of right now, and how her happening is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. My legs bruise as you bring me to my knees, and I feel her hands on my face and she whispers to me, “I have made others bleed, and I have accepted the chaos. We are all made to bruise but not all of us will break.” At first, I did not understand…so I studied her. How she would melt under the city’s moonlight, a feeling for beauty. She broke my eyes so I felt her body, a home of so many things, but you. The ones who love her next exist in the passing cars and I think, “You must be the one who is really in pain.” This girl is an enigma infused with a slight feeling of temptation. Can you blame her for wanting to be surrounded by beautiful things? Do we have to cripple and disfigure ourselves before we find the healing process? Where is He? I have searched day and night, where is the God she serves?